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Oddly I'm finding myself needing human companionship lately...I'm tired of hiding in my little hidy hole...I'm tired of being shy and quiet all the time and not letting myself be heard. I just need to courage to show my true colors..very few people (i can count on one hand) know what I'm truly like...I actually scare myself sometimes on the crazy and stupid things I've done. I could rant and rave about them but I could go on forever...I consider myself a better person after these "adventures" so to speak. I've dared to do things that I would never had done like 7 years ago. I got a tattoo (Love it...I so want more), explored my sexuality more (won't go there), turned twenty (OH THE HORROR!!!) though it have a good start.
I got my first speeding ticket last week (I blame gravity for it..stupid hills). Did you know that watering plants for 4 hours is the most boring job EVER!!!!!!! I'm not a plant person....I know absolutely nothing about plants..I'd be lucky if I didn't kill them all by the time summers over. I have been bored out of my mind these last few weeks..It's not healthy to have conversations with yourself...I need friends. I need to go and find something to do before my brain melts.
Current Location:
Bouncing on an exercise ball in the basement
Current Mood:
bouncy bouncy
Current Music:
Come To An End- Nelly Furtado
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Well that's just lovely.. I had such an awesome journal entry lined up and my stupid computer kicked me off and I lost the whole thing. (I'm in the middle of bashing it myself USELESS PIECE OF CRAP!!!)Ok rage over.....Anyway...what really to say...getting ideas from Amy. I SO WANT COLOURED TOILET PAPER!!!! Ok random..I know. I may put random things in here please laugh it will help me grow. I think I may have lost my mind since I started college. So I've been told to start off talking about my life..or lack thereof.. Ok..I was born...............grew up......went crazy........and I'm still there. To continue this useless timeine. I started college in the fall YAY ME!!!*puts hands in the air and starts dancing* I don't dance, it's scary. College is so not what I thought it would be. I always figured it would be the best time in my life (partying drinking, hanging out, getting laid) YEAH RIGHT!!! I haven't had time to do anything but work work work. I will admit though that I love school (I am such a nerd some people will agree), but I'm at the point now, I just want to burn my books and party all night. If I lived in res I so would be doing those things, but I have to be the responsible adult that my parents want me to be..haahaa if they only knew. Valentines day was depressing, had no one to share it with *HUGS TO ALL OF YOU* Kinda late, but better late than never.
To conclude this entry I shall talk about the weather. Short and sweet Canada is cold, white,and icey good weather for making igloos haha I made a funny. I wish I was somewhere warm, and cozy (beds always good). Anywhere but here. I shall update further in the near future but I want to leave you with this special message:

When doing laundry, you will always lose the skimpiest pair of underwear you own. It will then manifest itself on the back of your dads t-shirt which you so neatly folded. This will never happen with your grandma undies.

Current Location:
My basement
Current Mood:
silly silly
Current Music:
Shake Your Booty
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AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
I just want to scream until my hearts content ya know? Everything is driving me crazy lately. I started college last week, sound fun? Not so much. I have homework coming out my ass but it's to be expected hey it's college. My summer sucked I worked 3 jobs( ALL WORK AND NO PLAY MAKES LIFE REALLY BORING!!!!) I had no summer vacation, I had a weekend at my trailer and it rained all weekend so that sucked. You know it's sucks that things are so hard for me. I have to try twice as hard to get something down because there are always problems throughout the way. I'll be ok!....breath....breath. AH! All of my friends have gone to different schools which kind of sucks. I'm being forced to make new friends which isn't easy for my due to the fact I'm extremely shy, but I'm working on changing that. Steve Irwin died last week being stabbed in the heart by a stingray..I cried. I've become really paranoid lately..I'm worried that my mother may have breast cancer and given the fact that she doesn't make very wise health decisions it's possible. I'm scared to death that I'll lose her in the next ten years with the way that she's going. I don't really have the best realtionship with her because she always worked when I was a kid. I rarely saw and now it's hard to spend any time with her. I feel that's she's just not interested. All she does is watch tv and doesn't do barely anythingwith me, it frustrating. I think I've ranted enough for now, stay tuned for more.

CC#3
AKA :Frankie

Current Mood:
frustrated frustrated
Current Music:
Call me When Your Sober :Evanescence
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Well since I haven't updated in like forever I guess it's time for one. Today sucks the first thing I heard this morning on my radio was "TODAY IS FRIDAY THE 13TH". I was like OH CRAP! I might as well stay in bed today which I couldn't. I spent 3 hours of my morning going through and sorting movies and magazines for co-op (Which was really really fun *rolls eyes*). Then I had a quiz in math which I did porely on, then I got my unit test back and I failed by like 2%. And know I find out that I can't get into my college account so I can apply since applications are do REALLY REALLY SOON! I hope they can revoke it so I can get all this crap done. I really hope I can get into the program I want. Wish me luck.
Having a really bad day

CG#3

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Just posting this message to let everyone know I'm still here. Have to go. Bell rang, I'll update tomorrow if I can get to a compie.

Luv ya all

CC#3

Current Mood:
bouncy bouncy
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Happy Halloween Everybody!!!!!

I love halloween, knocking on doors and getting candy (YUM).I'm renting some scary videos tonight (I don't find horror movies scary just really funny). Today was fun, my costume is crazy my art teacher Mrs. Beckley (who is awesome) told my I looked like Janice Joplin. I had to model for her class today 70 MINUTES of not moving (my back is still sore). Commencement is coming up so that should be fun. I'm going partying with the girls afterwards. I won't be drinking though. I had a bad experience this summer, I was so drunk and the next day I was so sick I was in pain days afterwards. Note to self: DON'T DRINK LIKE 6 VODKA COOLERS IN 2 HOURS....NOT GOOD!!!
Hope you all have a awesome Halloween

Current Mood:
dorky dorky
Current Music:
Monster Mash
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Life: 6
Mind: 6.3
Body: 6.1
Spirit: 5.8
Friends/Family: 4.1
Love: 2.9
Finance: 5.9

HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

Current Mood:
bored bored
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That episode of Buffy was so funny. Anyway....nothing new in the world of the boring. I'm feeling kind of lonely right now. All my friends are off at school and I haven't seen them since Canada day. Thanksgiving weekend coming up YEAH!! I get to cook. YEAH! Or according to some people that might not be a yeah more as a yuck. I really not that bad of a cook......really I'm not. It's just people don't trust my cooking. Oh well. I really want to watch Buffy now but I'm in the library. I think I'll go read the Buffy called The Wisdom of War. It has Faith in it..I'm liking it already, YAYAYAYAYYAYAY!!!!!!!!

Gotta run!!!!

Current Mood:
amused amused
Current Music:
Mix
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Wow there is nothing new in the world right now. Well...at least my world anyway. There's always somthing going on in the real world wither it's people dying or terrorists. Why can't they put anyhting happy in the news or newspaper. It's always sad or depressing news. It's been really rare that any major happy story has happened lately. My mother is freaking out over the fact that over 25 people have died of a illness in the Scarbrough nursing home. Since I'm co-oping in the nursing home in my community my mom is just like "Be careful" (Which I am) "Take or vitamins" (yeah ok mom get right on that) I hate it when people treat you like a little baby...ya know.
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WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wow you can tell I'm bored.

Let's see if I can sum up what's happened since the last time I updated, in 20 easy steps.
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4) Summer school *BLAH*
5) *******************
6) .................
7) read a book *YAWN*
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9)blah blah blah
10) went to trailer *WHOOPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE FUN!*
11) Got completely shunned be the most memorable person in my life *WHAAA*
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13) co-oping at nursing home *shrugs*
14) *!*!*!**!*!**!*!*!*
15) nano nano nano
16) I HAVE A SPARE!!!!
17) i have math *#$%
18) ":"":":":":":":":":":
19) I might not be single for long
20) Overall you can see what's happend since last time
NOTHING!!!!!!

Current Mood:
chipper chipper
Current Music:
Song from a car commercial
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[1] First grade teacher's name:Mrs. Rutalage (or however ya spell it)

[2] Last thing you said: ha ha funny

[3] Last song you sang: I don't sing

[4] Last person you hugged: Amy

[5] Last thing you laughed at: An episode of Will & Grace

[6] Last time you said I don't remember: 10 min ago

[7] Last time you cried: a few weeks ago

[[[PRESENT]]]
[8] What's in your CD player: Much dance something

[9] What color socks are you wearing: bare foot

[10] What's under your bed: I don't want to know

[11] What time did you wake up today: 6:15 am

[12] Current taste: minty fresh

[13] Current hair: up

[14] Current clothes: jeans and t-shirt

[15] Current annoyance: pain in side

[16] Current longing: to see my friends

[17] Current desktop picture: freaky triangle thing

[18] Current worry: ISU presentation

[19] Current hate: Mayor of Casterbridge

[20] Current favorite article of clothing: my t-shirt saw it wanted it, had afit, got it

[22] Last CD that you listened to: Queen

[23] Favorite place to be: outside

[24] Least favorite place: being stuck in a girly girl store (BLAH)

[25] Time you wake up in the morning: see 11

[26] If you could play an instrument, what would you play: piano

[27] Favorite color: Blue

[28] Do you believe in an afterlife: sure

[29] How tall are you: 5'7"

[30] Current favorite word/saying: I don't get it

[31] Favorite book: Hitchhikers guide

[32] Favorite season: summer

[33] One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: Dan

[34] Favorite day: Friday

[[[FUTURE]]]
[35] Where do you want to go: Europe Europe Europe....oh did I mention EUROPE

[36] What is your career going to be like: nursing

[37] How many kids do you want: one

[38] What kind of car will you have: anything that will get me from ponit A to point B

[[[HAVE YOU EVER...]]]
[ Said "I love you" and meant it?: yes

[ Gotten in a fight w/your dog/cat/bird/fish, etc: ] Yes

[ Been to New York?: ] No
[ Been to Florida?: ] Yes

[ Cali?: ] No

[ Hawaii?: ] No

[ Mexico?: ] No

[China?: ] No

[ Canada?: ] Wish that I didn't

[ Danced naked?:] HA HA HA

[ Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day:] yes

[ Wanted to be the opposite sex:] EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

[ Had an imaginary friend?: ] Yup his name is BOB

[[[RANDOM]]]
[ Do you have a crush on someone?:] Duh yeah

[ Worst feeling in the world:] Being betrayed by the people you love

[ What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning?: ] Oh great another boring day in my life. Why can't I go back to bed WAAAAAAAAA

[ How many rings before you answer?: ] 3
[ Future daughter's name:] Grace

[ Future son's name: ] Jeremy

[ Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?: ]nope

[ If you could have any job you wanted, what would it be?:] No idea

[ Wish they were here:] Amy/Blair/Amanda

[ College plans: ] somewhere far far away

[ Piercing's: ] Ears

[ Do you do drugs?:] No (sometimes people wonder)

[ Do you drink: ] hee hee whenever

[ Who are your best friends?:] Amy, Blair, Amanda, Erica, etc

[ What kind of Shampoo and Conditioner do you use?: ] Fruitis style

[ What are you most scared of?: ] bugs

[ What clothes do you sleep in?: ] pj's

[ Who is the last person that called you?:] my father

[ If you could change anything about yourself what would it be?:] not being so shy

[ Been In Love?: ] Yup yup yup

[ Are You Timely Or Always Late: ] On time

[ Do You Have A Job:] no (sad)

[ Do You Like Being Around People: ] depends

[ Best feeling in the world:] hmmm do you really want me to answer that

[ Are you for world peace: ] Yes

[ Are you a health freak: ] not really

[ Do You Have A "Type" Of Person You Always Go After: ] crazy

[ Want Someone You Don't Have Right Now:] No I have who I want

[ Are You Lonely Right Now:] yeah

[ Ever Afraid You'll Never Get Married:] Nah

[ Do You Want To Get Married: ] depends

[ Do You Want Kids: ] yes

[[IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...]]]

[ Cried: ] No

[ Bought Something: ] Yes

[ Gotten Sick: ] No

[ Sang: ] no

[ Said I Love You: ] Yes

[ Wanted To Tell Someone You Loved them: ] Yes

[ Met Someone New: ] No

[ Moved On: ] ???

[ Talked To Someone: ] yes

[ Had A Serious Talk: ] Nope

[ Missed Someone: ] Yes

[ Hugged Someone: ] yes

[ Kissed Someone: ] no

[ Fought With Your Parents: ] no

[ Dreamed About Someone You Can't Be With:] No

[ Had a lot of sleep: ] No

Current Mood:
bouncy bouncy
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Hello everybody...it's me Mel. In case you don't remember me from way back when.
Well can't say that anything incredible has happened in my life because it's going nowhere. I get to go into a six week program for counseling about stuff that only a couple of people know about. I hear the waiting list is long and I probably won't get in for a few months. Well I got to get back to my homework that's like a mile high.

will update again in the next millenia...lol

CG#3

Current Mood:
cold cold
Current Music:
blank blank blank
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I WANT SECOND SEMESTER TO START!!!!WAAHHHHHHHHHHHH..ok I'm done now. I have such good classes next semester and I only have one more exam to go. It's chemistry *makes a digusting face* I hate it. But we get a cheat sheet which relieves the stress a lot. I get to go and see the doctor again on weds WHOOPDY DI DO! I really should get working on my cheat sheet. Sorry if I haven't been on MSN lately its being evil it says I have a problem with my internet connection so I'm downloading it again I hope it work *crosses her fingers*.

Talk 2 u soon

Current Mood:
stressed stressed
Current Music:
Oscarmyer Weiner song thing AHHHHHH!
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01. Who are you, what's our relationship?: Melissa, friends
02. How and where did we meet?: At one of our parents baseball games
03. What's my middle name?: Alice
04. How long have you known me?: 12 or 14 years (somwhere along that line)
05. Tell me one good thing about myself?: Loving
06. When you first saw me, what was your impression?: ohhhhhh I can make a new friend
07. My age: 17
08. Birthday: September 4th 1987
09. My favorite band at the moment: The Beatles
10. Colour eyes: Green
11. Do I have any siblings?: 2 Chirstian and Dan
12. Have you ever had a crush on me?: Possibly
13. What's one of my favorite things to do?: Write
14. Do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you?: ummmmmm Hi
15. Describe me in 3 words: openminded, compassionate, optamistic
16. Name 5 things I love: rice, writing, watching the Apprentice, music, and diffinatley the Beatles
17. Do you think I'm good looking?: In someways
18. How would you describe me to someone?: I good person to get to know
19. Would you ever date me?: sure
20. Tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did: I'm sorry for any pain that I may have caused you and I know that all the things you've done to me in the past will be forgotten.
21: What do you like most about me?: The ways you can express yourself and that I can understand where your coming from.
22: If we could spend a day together, what would we do?: anything you wanted
23: Have we ever gotten in a fight?: we've had our share
24: Do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years?: maybe
25. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it: Don't know
26. What do you think my weakness is?: you always wanting to be in control
27. Do you think I'll get married?: yes
28. What makes me happy?: Being open with yourself and seeing other people happy
29. What makes me sad?: your dad
30. What reminds you of me?: a teddy bear
31. If you could give me anything, what would it be?: a kiss
32. When's the last time you saw me?: wednesday
33. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?: it's fading
34. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?: yes
35. Are you going to put this on your Xanga/Live Journal and see what I say about you?: yup
36. If I was an ice cream flavor, which would I be and why?: this is going to sound qorkie but vanilla because iyou taste so good
37. What song (if any) reminds you of me?: Slipped Away By Avril Lavigne
38. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?: don't know
39. Would you make a move on me?: possibly
40. Do I cross your mind at least 1 time a day? yes
Current Mood:
calm calm
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I can't wait until tonight. Brody is having his birthday party and I get to go. It should be fun. YAY I'm so happy Christmas is in less then a month and I haven't got one gift yet. I still haven't set a date for us to go shopping so hang in there Amy, hopefully we can go in the next week or so. I got to go and clean the house before my mother gets home and starts freaking out because the house is so messy.

PS : I love this icon it's so cute

Current Mood:
relaxed relaxed
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Does Amy even like Oprah? That's just freaky
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happy happy
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I'm so sad today.. For the last three years I feel like that I don't belong anywhere. It makes me very upset. I can't seem to make any friends. The people that I hang with now. I feel like I have no connection with them. It's like I'm isolated from everybody. I'm constanly being ignored by people and it makes my feel even worse. It's like I;m in a dark hole and all there is, is me. I'm sorry if I affened you Eskimo, it's me running my big mouth I can't sem to say anyhting or do anything right. I'm sorry
Current Mood:
sad sad
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1. Tell me something obvious about yourself. I'm shy
2. Tell me something about yourself that I don't know. ???
3. What is your biggest fear? Bugs
4. Do you normally take the safe route or the shortcut? shortcut
5. What is the one thing you want the most that you can't buy with money? a boy or girl friend
6. What is your most treasured possession? my journal
7. What is the one thing you hate most about yourself that you do the most often? Have a tendoncy not to fit in anywhere
8. Tell me something about you sexually that I don't know. ?????
9. Tell me something about you sexually that everybody knows. I'm bi
10. What is your favorite lie to tell? I didn't do it
11. Name something you have done once that you can't wait to do again. go on Skyrider at Wonderland
12. Are you the jealous type? kind of
13. What is the 1 person, place or thing that you can never say no to? Eskimo
14. What is the nicest thing someone has ever done for you? Actually being there for my to talk to
15. If you could do something crazy right now, what would it be? Go cliff jumping
16. When was the last time you cried? last week
17. When was the last time you felt so good that nothing else mattered? Last year
18. Do you feel comfortable in public with no shirt on? uhhhhh no
19. Name something embarressing you did while drunk. Sprained my ankle and fell on my ass laughing
20. If you post this in your journal, do you want me to answer it? Sure
Current Mood:
geeky geeky
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What Flavour Are You? I am a subtle taste, like Pine.I am a subtle taste, like Pine.


I am a quiet, fresh taste, almost more of a scent than a flavour. You will be aware of me, but not quite remember me without being reminded. Not that I'm boring; on the contrary, I'm just a little outside the ordinary. What Flavour Are You?


mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.......I like pine.
Current Mood:
busy busy
Current Music:
none
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Name?: Mel
Sex?: Female
Height?: 5'7"
Eye color?: Blue
Number of candles on your last birthday cake?: 17
Pets?: 2 cats
Hair color?: blonde
Piercings?: 4
Been toilet papering?: lol
Love someone so much it made you cry?: yep
Been in a car accident?: yep
Favorite flower?: Roses
Favorite drink?: Water, Sprite, Apple Juice
Favorite ice cream flavor?: Vanilla
Warner Bros. or Disney?: Disney
Favorite fast food restuarant?: none
Last person you went out to dinner with?: my dad
Been out of country?: Yep
Believe in magick?: *yep
Do you have a bf/gf?: Nope.
If so, what is their name?: -Invalid-
How long have you been together?: -Invalid-
Are you a virgin?: yes
What are your favorite colors?: blue
Do you have any birthmarks?: yes
Have you ever gotten your ass kicked?: yes.
Who do you talk to most on the phone?: nobody
Have you ever been slapped?: yes
Do you get online a lot?: sometimes
Are you shy or outgoing?: shy
Do you shower?: Of course.
Do you hate school?: No
Do you have a social life?:kind of
How easily do you trust people?: Not easily
Do you have a secret people would be surprised knowing?: yes
Would you ever sky dive?: hell yeah
Do you like to dance?: not really
Have you ever been out of state?: yes.
Do you like to travel?: I love it.
Have you ever been expelled from school?: No
Have you ever been suspended from school?: No
Do you want to get out of your hometown?: hell yes
Are you spoiled?: yeah
Are you a brat?: can be
Have you ever been dumped?: yes
Do you drink a lot of water?: Yes
Do you have a cell phone?: no (damn you people)
Do you have a curfew?: No
Are you a role model?: yeah
What kind of jewelry do you wear?: nothing
What do you want pierced?: my nose
Do you like taking pictures?: YES YES YES
Do you like getting your picture taken?: NO NON ON NNONONONON
Do you have a tan?: kind of
Do you get annoyed easily?: yes
Have you ever started a rumor?: No
Do you have your own phone or phone line?: no
Do you have your own pool?: nope
Do you have any siblings?: nope
Do you get along with your parents?: sometimes
Have you ever ran away?: Nope. Thought about it
Do you even have a job?: No
Do you daydream a lot?: yes
Do you have a lot of ex's?: No
Do you run your mouth?: depends
What does your ex bf/gf look like?: weird.
Have you ever been bitched out?: yes
Are you rude?: nope
What was the last compliment you recieved?: that my boob look good (don’t ask)
Do you like getting dirty?: depends.
Are you flexible?:kindof
What is your heritage?: English, American, German
What is your lucky number?: 4
What does your hair look like right now?: short and blonde
Could you ever be a vegetarian?: depends what kind
If you had to completely dye your hair it'd be what color?: brunette
Would you ever date someone younger than you?: yes
Would you ever date someone older than you?: Yes
When was the last time you were drunk?: this summer.
How many rings until you answer the phone?:three
Have you ever been skinny dipping?: Yes
When was the last time you went on a date?: long time ago
Do you look more like your mother or father?: My dad
Do you cry a lot?: Not a lot.
Do you ever cry to get your way?: No
What phrase do you use most when on the phone?: bite me
Are you the romantic type?: Yes
Have you ever been chased by cops?: No
When did you have your first crush?: at the age of ten
When was the last time you threw up?:few months ago
In the opposite sex, do you prefer blondes or brunettes?: both are fine
Is your best friend a virgin?: As far as I know...
Have you ever fucked someone up?:no
Have you ever been fucked up?: yep
What theme does your room have?: forestry
What size shoe do you wear?: 11
How are you feeling right now?: very much awake
When was the last time you were at a party?: last week
Have you ever given a lapdance?: No
Have you ever recieved one?: No
Has there ever been a rumor spread about you?: Yes
What is one of your bad qualilties?: people take advantage of me
What is one of your good qualilties?: I listen.
Would you marry for money?: No
What do you drive?: A car
Are you more of a mommys or daddys child?:dad
So?: So I fell down a hole . Fuck I broke my leg
Well?: it hurt
When was the last time you cried in school?:years years ago.
Would you ever hook up with the same sex?: not yet
What kind of music do you like?: punk, rock
Would you ever bungee jump?: HELL YEAH.
What is your worst fear?: bugs.
Do you like cows?: yeah
If you were to die today, what would you do?:fuck fuck fuck fuck.
If you had a last word to say to someone before you die, what would it be?: I’ve been morning
for my ass
Do you like to party?: yep
Coke or pepsi?: pepsi
Favorite scent?: new car smell
Would you ever dye your hair red?: Yes
How many languages can you speak?: English, some french
Current Mood:
annoyed annoyed
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